These Dreams Go On When I Close My Eyes

Don't you love when people tell you about their dreams? I know you do, so here goes: I often will have dreams that encompass the entire night and feel so real that, when I become conscious enough to think about them, I sometimes can't determine whether the dream is real or not. These dreams are typically centered around something that I have done, or forgot to do, that is causing stress and anxiety. When I was working, I would often dream that I had missed several key deliverables in a project and I was going to have to explain to my bosses why I had dropped the ball. Last night, I dreamed that I had committed a large amount of our money to buying a portion of a steer (for meat) in partnership with my friend Claire (Hi Claire, for your birthday you get to star in my anxiety dream!!). And this isn't just any beef -- it's Kobe or Wagyu or some other beef that is super expensive because they raise the animal in a suite at the Bellagio, feeding it caviar and gold whilst geishas continuously massage it. So I'm into this commitment BIG -- but I haven't told Glenn that I've done this. So all night long, I kept waking up just enough to think, "How the hell am I going to tell Glenn that, despite being unemployed, I've committed thousands of dollars to Claire?". Or, I would wake up and think, "How am I going to tell Claire that I have to back out of this deal? She's going to be furious! And its not her fault!". And each time I wake up I am also telling myself, "This isn't real. Go back to sleep. You don't owe Claire money. But...maybe I do? I remember doing it -- we signed papers and stuff! It IS real! Oh SHIT! No, dummy...No it isn't...why on earth would Claire be dealing high-end beef? It doesn't make sense! Go back to sleep, you wacko!" So there you go -- a glimpse into my subconscious. Fun, huh?